Fight Fight Fight.

Saturday night was awesome

Today, I did try to cram in some studying

But failed since I have no mojo

Trying to continue in a bit

I am dreading tomorrow to start

Its a weird feeling pushing your pride aside for someone else

Its very... humiliating to say the least when the other person doesn't seem to appreciate that fact

A person can only do so much before it starts to hurt

How long must that person push away their ego

While the other just sits there basking in the fact that they don't have to do much

There was something I did that I regretted

I kind of regretted saying I wanted to be friends

But in all honesty we both know that isn't the truth

All I wanted to ask is what am I to you?

Friends? Best friends? Potential girlfriend? Scandal? In between of something person?

And the sad part is... the possibility of me knowing will be low

Its a sad thing that when I mentioned before that it was me who has to reach out first to most people

After that those people did try to reach out to me first... but only once or twice

Then it was back to me again to reach out

Sad sad sad fact

Some say that if you want something, you have to fight for it

But someone else said, if it was meant to be it would happen

Another saying goes screw fate, take charge of your own destiny

To counter that, let each puzzle piece to fall into its own place

Isn't it all contracting each other?

But it's true

A girl can only fight for something she wants so much

Before everything just becomes painful

And before the other person starts making it sound like it's a burden to talk to her

I was never subtle, even when I try

So maybe I should seriously back off

If you want me to continue being there

Seriously let me know

Or I would really back off

Finding a decent guy at a club is like a girl trying to find a girl friend in an all male school

Impossible

Salute