new chapter in life starts tomorrow insyaAllah

got back from overseas in one piece

not in the best physical or mental shape

still not over the fact how fast you move while im still stuck here

seeing how happy you are

makes me feel super pathetic

how do you look at the person you love knowing that you have to let them go?

For you.

i feel pathetic

but it really wont change anything

i die a little each day waiting for you to say something

but knowing you wont

i die a little each time i stumble upon you online

knowing you were there

i die a little each time i remember you

knowing we would never have it again

i told you before and im saying it again

i dont think my heart is strong enough for this anymore

kind of lost

pathetic and depressed

but what do any of you care

it doesnt matter how I feel

cause if it did

someone would actually do something

to get rid of the pain

that seems to be always there

fuck i feel pathetic

to those who reads the cookie

dont cry over someone who wont cry over you

im giving you the control you wanted.

Everything Is Wrong.

I like watching couples who are always together interact

Always making me feel like a third wheel

Always making me feel like I can never have that any time soon

Always rubbing it in my face

I thought you would always be the one to understand me

But I guess I was wrong about it

I thought you would be there for me

I tell myself that everything is fine all the time

That nothing is wrong with everything

Apparently I can lie to myself, maybe I can successfully lie to others too